When I was a student at the University of Salzburg in Austria, I found myself attending a weekly prayer service at a Franciscan church. It was very meaningful at first, but I later fell out of favor with it due to some theological differences.
Unable to have joy for what it was, I took it to task for what it was not.
One fellow student, later on, approached me to report how wonderful the service was for her. Out of my own spite, I dismissed her experience rudely. God help me.
This was nearly 12 years ago, and from time to time I think about occasions like this -times when I totally blew it. Normally these day dreams are accompanied by shame. The trick, I’ve learned, is to invite God’s grace into that space and forgive myself.
Leave it in the past…God’s grace has covered it.
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old things passed away; behold, they have become new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
*Boa, K. (1993). Handbook to prayer: Praying scripture back to God. Atlanta: Trinity House.