Some people lower a bucket into a well. Others have a tap in their home. We all draw water from somewhere. The water may not have originated there, but that mechanism by which you receive the necessity for life is all too important.
Do you have a mentor –someone to draw water from?
That was a tricky thing for me for a time. I spent time reading and watching videos, but there’s no replacement for that one on one experience…for someone to pour into your life.